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this is about forgettingThis is the thing about forgetting:
                For weeks you bury your face in the clothes you wore when he was near and the smell is a comfort and a torture.  You decide that the torture is not worth the comfort so you leave them draped across the back of a chair and place things on top of them to stop yourself until one day you shove your hands through the pile until your fingers wrap around the fabric and you yank it free only to realize it was pointless.  Even his ghost is gone.
                The next thing that leaves is the way his voice looked in the dark.  Those few sentences become blurred and rough around the edges.  What you remember drops in your stomach in a different way. 
                You run your fingers over your

for all intensive purposesi am accused of being
a category five--
    but i will not excuse the way my skin aches.  
i want storms.
    i remember the way Katrina screamed &
    if you press your ear to my chest you will hear the same.  
the moan turning into a pitch, the pitch
screaming until the throat is too raw to be
more than a whimper.  
the way it stops
and pauses,
silently racked until it bursts forth once more.  
i will not apologize for being demolition.  
scars exist on every woman
too powerful to contain herself. 
LW: (title page - epigraph)"Camus said that the only true function of man, born into an absurd world, is to live, be aware of one's life, one's revolt, one's freedom.  He said that if the only solution to the human dilemma is death, then we are on the wrong road.  The right track is the one that leads to life, to sunlight.  One cannot unceasingly suffer from the cold. […]  The track he followed led into the sunlight in being that one devoted to making with our frail powers and our absurd material,  something which had not existed in life until we made it."- William Faulkner
"Betrayals, even your own, can surprise you.  They can make you do things."-Lorrie Moore

I mean, I should be the center of your life anyway

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 3, 2015, 8:18 PM


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Jacked this from TheEmptyChest. Because she's cool. Not as cool as me, but cool enough. 

The story behind it?


"You can tell a lot about a person by what they write, but there are lots of other ways to get an idea of who they are. What they wear; what they read; what their room looks like; what posters they hang on their walls; what they keep in their bedside drawer. If you're like me, bored with answering the same questions, then feel free to jump in and show your watchers who you are in a different way.
 :D (Big Grin)"
SilverInkblot, the meme's creator

What to do:


Bullet; Pink Post a selfie
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of your bed.
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of your bookshelf.
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of one of your more unusual possessions.
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of a favorite accessory you love to wear.
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of something you've had since childhood.
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of your pet(s).
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of your neighborhood.
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of your closet.
Bullet; Pink Post a photo of your shoes.
Bullet; Blue a short description after each photo would be sweet.

So here goes...



Selfie


Me by TheTerrorOfTheDeep

In an undisclosed location, but I assure I am surrounded by millions of dollars worth of electronics. I'm not even exaggerating. It's almost an offense to human decency. 

Bed


Bed by TheTerrorOfTheDeep

I mean overall, it could be worse. The orange t-rex's name is Anxious Oliver. My friend gave him to me for my birthday last year because she is great. The Absolut Vodka bottle lamp was made by my boo for me. Got some Smaug promotional pins from when The Battle of Five Armies was released; monster jump drive from TheStorageGnome; scripts; transparent playing cards from an airport; twenty sided life counter for mtg; glow-in-the-dark raptor; headphones that refuse to stay in my right ear; books; and the key chains are a laser pointer for cat encounters, a chameleon with a flashlight in its mouth, and a Red Bull trivia booklet I got from when we traded movie passes to the Red Bull girls for all the Red Bull in their backpacks. And other things. 

Bookshelf



Bookshelf by TheTerrorOfTheDeep'

I need more space because for all the books on my shelves, there is about the same amount stacked on the floor. And boxes in the hallway. And in the attic. And the basement. I might have a problem. Maybe I should start a book give-away on dA. Opinions?

Unusual Possessions


Rosary by TheTerrorOfTheDeep

Rosary with skull beads carved from Tibetan ox bones. Or so I was told. I would have taken a photo of my t-shirt from the Clown Union fundraiser but I couldn't find it. My bro ran away and joined the circus a few years ago.

Bb by TheTerrorOfTheDeep

That's him.

Exit by TheTerrorOfTheDeep 

It's not like the church was even using it.

Favorite Accessory


Usethison3ds by TheTerrorOfTheDeep


My 3ds goes everywhere with me because my greatest fear is being bored and stuck somewhere I don't want to be.


Something I've had Since Childhood


Babyblue by TheTerrorOfTheDeep

I don't remember who gave him to me, but I would probably shank you for looking at him wrong. 

My pet


3 Vizlas 9-28-14 010 by TheTerrorOfTheDeep

The old lady is Dixie (the matriarch) who died earlier this year. She's not mine, but her pup, Gypsy (the middle one) is. And the last is Eva, from Gypsy's second litter. We haven't bred Eva even though she's considered a champion by AKC because we're worried the puppies will turn out to be weird like her.

My neighborhood


Untitled by TheTerrorOfTheDeep

I have way too many stories for all the things in this google street view. If you pick out a label from it and ask, I'll tell you one.

My closet


Forgot about this section and even though I could just unplug my phone and go up the stairs and take a photo, I am not going to. It's just pillowcases full of stuffed animals and a blood soaked black evening gown I keep forgetting to get dry cleaned.

My shoes


I definitely have shoes. Definitely.



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If given the chance, which famous dead author would you fight? Comment why and how you think the fight would turn out. 

27%
4 deviants said Ernest Hemingway
27%
4 deviants said Comment with author.
20%
3 deviants said H.P. Lovecraft
7%
1 deviant said Agatha Christie
7%
1 deviant said Franz Kafka
7%
1 deviant said Beatrix Potter
7%
1 deviant said George Orwell
0%
No deviants said Fyodor Dostoyevsky
0%
No deviants said Ayn Rand
0%
No deviants said John Steinbeck

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:iconirrevocablefate:
IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner 1 day ago   Writer
My beloved goddess,

If there ever should come a day when your excellence is questioned I will fight them for you. I will have my blood.

(ง •̀_•́)ง

I love you, Happy Birthday, beautiful. ♥
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thorns Featured By Owner 1 day ago   Writer
:cake:
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squeezelouise Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
You get nice comments. I'm jealous.
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:icontheterrorofthedeep:
TheTerrorOfTheDeep Featured By Owner 6 days ago
It's because I'm so nice.
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squeezelouise Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
I certainly think so. 
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Undomiel321 Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for the llama! :heart:
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UltimateSketchQueen Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I was sent from afar to deliver this message:
You are gorgeous!Emoji02 Emoji02 
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TheTerrorOfTheDeep Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2015
:iconaawplz: No, you.
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inknalcohol Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2015   Writer
Why can't I double watch you?  I want to watch you more than anyone else.
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TheTerrorOfTheDeep Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2015
I recommend unwacthing me and then rewatching me. It will give me the joy of see in you in my inbox and give me the chance to talk smack on you while you're out of the room.
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