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this is about forgettingThis is the thing about forgetting:
                For weeks you bury your face in the clothes you wore when he was near and the smell is a comfort and a torture.  You decide that the torture is not worth the comfort so you leave them draped across the back of a chair and place things on top of them to stop yourself until one day you shove your hands through the pile until your fingers wrap around the fabric and you yank it free only to realize it was pointless.  Even his ghost is gone.
                The next thing that leaves is the way his voice looked in the dark.  Those few sentences become blurred and rough around the edges.  What you remember drops in your stomach in a different way. 
                You run your fingers over your

for all intensive purposesi am accused of being
a category five--
    but i will not excuse the way my skin aches.  
i want storms.
    i remember the way Katrina screamed &
    if you press your ear to my chest you will hear the same.  
the moan turning into a pitch, the pitch
screaming until the throat is too raw to be
more than a whimper.  
the way it stops
and pauses,
silently racked until it bursts forth once more.  
i will not apologize for being demolition.  
scars exist on every woman
too powerful to contain herself. 
LW: (title page - epigraph)"Camus said that the only true function of man, born into an absurd world, is to live, be aware of one's life, one's revolt, one's freedom.  He said that if the only solution to the human dilemma is death, then we are on the wrong road.  The right track is the one that leads to life, to sunlight.  One cannot unceasingly suffer from the cold. […]  The track he followed led into the sunlight in being that one devoted to making with our frail powers and our absurd material,  something which had not existed in life until we made it."- William Faulkner
"Betrayals, even your own, can surprise you.  They can make you do things."-Lorrie Moore

Social Necessities and Other Things I Lack

Journal Entry: Fri Feb 27, 2015, 4:11 PM


Hey, kiddo,

Sup. How's that whole existence thing going? I mean you got to my journal and you're reading it so I got faith in you, little buddy. If you need a ear, I'll lend you one. I got like four in a jar and also two working ones attached to my head. Though who am I to say the less attached to a head four aren't working? I mean maybe they got another job. Floating around in that jar. Doin' their ear thang. Man, I can't call it. idk. How do I even go about writing off ear paychecks on my taxes? Like what would I even pay them in? Q-tips? I don't know how useful q-tips would be to ears without hands. Maybe I should hire hands to clean the ears with the q-tips I'm paying them in. To be honest I don't really want any other body near my ears if they're not actually going to use them so maybe I can hire, like, disembodied hands? Is that a thing? Is that magic? Has science gone too far?

Things have been not so great in and around my head at certain points within the recent past and the less recent past and will remain less than stellar within the not too distance future as well as the very distant future. 

In retrospect I can see how you might consider the previous two paragraphs to be related, but I assure you they are not aside from being in this journal and written by me. The not great status I mentioned in the proceeding paragraph stems more from particular people who I am not going to name, but I can tell you are definitely my family. Not to point any fingers, but it's without a doubt those of blood relation to me that live within a twenty five mile radius. More specifically the same house. But I don't really want anyone to feel left out so I am just going to generalize and say within the county.

If you want to take a wild guess as to who indubitably is the source of my problems I can ascertain that has been confirmed by experts to be me. Did you ever really believe it could be anyone else?

I thought not.

I don't even know how any of the previous words happened. I mean I typed them, but not one hundred percent sure about what thought process led to me constructing them into comprehensible sentences. I should write a last will and testament because if I ever die unexpectedly I want at least six people with the mission of destroying my harddrive. Don't want anyone else getting credit for gems like these. It's like the spirit of Shakespeare has possessed me sans dick jokes. I mean I would make more dick jokes, but I have trouble working them in. Never fits quite right. Maybe I'm using the wrong equipment. Not my area of expertise to be honest.

Dick jokes would not help my online persona anyway. Dick jokes would probably not help any persona I have at all. Whatever filter I might have had before has been eroding at an alarming rate. If anyone is to be alarmed about it that is. Now would be the time. I know there might be some skepticism as to whether I had one to begin with, but I promise you, if the earlier ramblings have not convinced you, my damn of giving something resembling a fuck about keeping my mouth shut is close to bursting. I'd say Johnstown Flood Level, but let's face facts, the only victims here are people who don't know how to extract themselves from the vortex of my neediness and whoever is horrifically fascinated enough to read my journals.

Holla' at me. And my ears. Or not the ears. I see now how that might come off as creepy.

Love,


But not too much love, like not creepy love,

The Terror.


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thorns Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2015   Writer
:love:
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the Llama.
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SocietalOutcast Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2015  New member Hobbyist Writer
I'm experiencing heart palpitations just thinking about venturing into the depths of your Gallery. I'm going to tie a rope around my waist, the other end fastened to the old claw foot bathtub down the hall, a tub which hasn't budged in a century.

I might discover paradise or hell there... ;)
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TheTerrorOfTheDeep Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2015
Ah ha, do not get too excited. I took my favorites down. If what is there does appeal to you. Let me know. I would considering letting you read what I hid.
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SocietalOutcast Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2015  New member Hobbyist Writer
I'll do so. (I've been known to make writings secret myself, but I'll never destroy a story, as I once did. That I regret.:()
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TheTerrorOfTheDeep Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2015
I have destroyed many stories. Many. Sometimes I regret it just because I lost certain ideas. I don't regret destroying my first novel.
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VFreie Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2015
Hi, and welcome to :iconthewrittenrevolution: theWrittenRevolution!
There are lots of things you can get involved in:

Bullet; Red we post monthly writing prompts (that include prizes, and a chat event during the month to help people with their pieces),

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We'll soon be reviving our chatroom with weekly activities, so stay tuned for that too. :D (Big Grin)

We also have Facebook and Twitter accounts. On our profile page you will find links to the latest of all the activities I listed up here and to our social networks that will help you keep updated, so feel free to look around and ask if you have any questions, we're here to help!

Welcome to the revolution. I salute you!
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IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2015   Writer
My flawless goddess, oh how I cherish you. ♥
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TheTerrorOfTheDeep Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2015
And I you. No one, mortal or immortal, could change that.
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